Diary

Every day I try to remember to be grateful that I am alive and at good health and that my loved ones are the same. Days like today I realise even more how lucky I am for that. I have some good friends going through life changing events, one with some serious health issues and another two who's family member has gone missing.
Inside I am a disarray of emotions and thoughts, one second feeling extremely happy that it is not me, or my family, and the next second feeling a deep pain and helplessness for my friends.

I urge you all to remember how precious life is, and how fast things can change. Live your life with joy and take care of the people you love. Tell them how much you love them, make sure they know without a doubt.

I wish you all love and good health, be safe and have fun!

10 Reasons Why You Would Want To Be You. “Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.” – Dr Seuss

Society, parents, schools, friends and sometimes even you yourself try to fit you into a mold, form or shape of their idea of what a good human being is. This will make most people confused and might be the biggest reason for people being unhappy today. There are, however, plenty of good reasons for you to find yourself and to stay yourself throghout the rest of your life.

 Dare You To Move - Switchfoot

Here are 10 reasons why you would want to be you:

1. If you are your true self, nobody will be able to think of you as, or call you, a fake and be right about it. There will always be someone out there that doesn't like you, that calls you names or tells untrue stories about you, but as long as you are yourself they will never be right. You will always be the winner in those situations.

2. It is so much easier to remember your opinions and standpoints in different situations if they are your own. Lying is not being honest and not being yourself. If you tell a lie you will to remember what you said. If you are you you are truthful and it doesn't matter if you remember it or not, because it was the truth and you know it.

3. You can never ever be someone else better than they are themselves anyway so why put your energy on it. Not being able to be the best of who you are is painful, and if you are somebody else you will never be the best. It will always be painful in the end. At least if you are yourself you have a chance of being the best of who you are.

4. Nobody else can be you better than you can, so why not be you. Just as you can never be somebody else better than they are themselves, someone else can never be you better than you are. This means that if you are somebody else, you as you are meant to be, will never be.

5. You can never live your dream life if you are not you. You have a dream life somewhere waiting for you, but you will never live it unless you start being you. No matter what your dream life is. If you are not you, you will not live your dream life. You might live someone else's, but your life will never be lived.

6. When you achieve something, reach a goal it is so much nicer to do it as yourself than as somebody else. If you achieve something when you are not you it is not you achieving it. When you reach a goal when you are not you it is not you reaching the goal. The reaching and achieving might be nice, but it will never as great as it is when you achieving something or reach your goals as yourself.

7. It is impossible to know what your dreams and goals are if you are not you. What are your dreams specifically? Are they truly your dreams and goals or are they a product of everybody, or at least somebody, else's dreams and goals? You will never know what your real dreams and goals are in life if you are not you living your life. Why would you want to achieve a goal that isn't yours?

8. Being somebody else in your body will eventually be a complete mismatch and your body will start to revolt. Your body is your temple. You can not change your body and your looks into someone else's, unless you have a lot of plastic surgery done, If you are someone else, your body will still be yours and some time down the road your body will start to disagree with the fact that you are not being you living your life fulfiling your dreams. How your body will show you that will differ from person to person, but if you listen to it it will tell you. You are not supposed to be in pain, if you are something is wrong with the inner being inside you.

9. You only have one life, that you know of, and why would you want to live that life as someone you are not. Even if you believe in reinkarnation it is highly unlikely that you will remember it from life to life. You need to do with this life the best that you can, and you need to do it as yourself. Why would you want to waste your one life on being something or someone your not, living up to other peoples expectations and fulfilling other people's dreams when you can live up to your own expectations and fulfill your own dreams.

10. You will never ever be truly and deeply happy as someone you are not. Everybody wants to be happy, it is the essence of life itself, but how can you ever be truly happy if you are not you? If you live your life listening to everybody but yourself you might end up having a somewhat good and comfortable life, but on the day you die what you will regret mostly will be all the times you didn't follow your own wishes, feelings and dreams. Follow your own heart is being yourself, Being yourself is being happy.

Do you agree with me? Or do you disagree? What are your thoughts and feelings about this subject? Are you being you, living your dream life, fulfilling your own dreams? Have you got any other reason that I didn't list here? Please, leave a comment and let me know what you think. 

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Lyrics to "Dare You To Move"- by Switchfoot

Love
Carina 

Diary

I love sundays here in Spain. Everything is closed, except for most restaurants, bars, and cafes. You are forced to do stuff you like to do such as stay in bed all day, sunbathe, chill on the sofa infront of the telly, read or write (well I choose to see it that way anyway but I know some people use sundays for cleaning and other very important must-do-today-or-i-will-die chores).

So far today I have made a base for the homemade (lchf) pizza we're having tonight and I've cooked some bacon and eggs for a late breakfast, and I have had coffee in bed while watching telly, and now I am doing this. Soon I will make some bread (lchf) for me so I can have a boiled egg and Kalles (swedish) kaviar sandwich for breakfast tomorrow. And I am going to prepare some toppings for our pizza, and after that I will.... well, I have no idea what I will feel like doing when it's time for "after that". Point is that I haven't done anything I HAD to do, all I've done so far is because I wanted to do it, and whatever I do later on will be because I want to do it.
(Btw I am never bored because whatever I do, I choose to do it)

I wish you all a very happy and relaxing Sunday! Spend time with your loved ones and enjoy the fruits of your life.

Diary

Yesterday was a good day, well all my days are good days but yesterday was different, because I had such an inspiration all day. I started out writing on my book in the morning, kept on writing while waiting for the train and on the train and the whole time working I was plotting in my head, idea after idea came to me moving my story forward. Our youngest cat helped moving it forward in the morning too by knocking over my coffee mug all over the bed. Well expect a knocked over coffee mug to appear in the book somewhere.

I'm dyeing my hair at since we are going out for dinner tonight with a friend who turned 30 recently, Japanese. I love japanese food, although it does not really agree with my normal diet. My diet is LCHF btw, Low Carb High Fat, and I don't eat that way to lose weight but because carbs are bad for you (at least for me) and fats are good (at least for me). How do I know? My body tells me so.

Anyway, got to go rinse my hair and get ready for the bank and work. Have to make sure I've got enough money for my mobile bill, I love my mobile and what I pay for so it's a good thing. I hope your day will be as fanastic as mine will be! Stay safe and stay happy!

Diary

I never did go out the other day, I ended up spending my day registering on a job site for freelanlancers. I am on a couple of those but what I like about this particular one is that they offer free skill tests, most other sites I've been on charge you for them, and you need them to be able to compete. I love tests!! Anyway, I tend not to do things the traditional way, I have never gotten a job by sending in a complete CV. I have applied for maybe 3 jobs that way, gotten as far as an interview to all of them but never gotten the job. Why? Because there is something about that whole process that I don't like and I think it shows. I've sent out informal letters, or emails, a few times and that has always landed me a job I have enjoyed. All the other jobs I've had, and I have had quite a few since I like trying new things out to see what I like the most, have fallen into my lap because I've wanted them. Like the café I work part time at now, I started to think that it would be nice to work there about six months before I was asked if I wanted to work there. I never did anything to approach them, I had never even spoken to them before I was asked to come down and see them. And that is how I will operate on this job site as well. I haven't, and won't, put my CV on there, but I will send out more or less informal proposals to jobs that feel right for me. If they are right I will get them.

Today I am not sure what I will end up doing, but I think I might go down to the beach with pen and paper, or take the train to some other part of the beach. Anyway, it seems to be a lot warmer today than it was on Monday so.. Have a good day ya'll!