It's a wonderful life!

Almost three months ago I started a new job, and I love it. Not just the job itself, but my collegues and the company are all fantastic. I am well paid and I am now going through the process of spending money on material things I wanted for a while, but don't really need. And I'm loving it. I can already feel that the urge to spend in decreasing. Another month or two and I will be content enough and I will start saving.

I have got a few trips to look forward to next year. First up will be a short trip to Sweden in January with my son, after that a trip to Italy with my Sweetie, and hopefully there will be another trip to Sweden during the summer. Hopefully for a family reunion, but it all depends on wether my cousins that are shattered all over the world can all join at the same time. Time will tell!

I have noticed a drop in my creativity during the summer, probably due to the heat, but I am now feeling an increase again. Hoooray!! I think a part of the drop had to do with my laptop becoming extremely hot adding to the already existing heat. But, it has now cooled down a bit, even though it is still very warm and nice outside, and also I bought myself a tablet whkch makes it a lot easier to write and post new posts frequently. Even though the writing itself it a bit more time consuming the total amount of time is less.

The pic is of the home made pizza I made for the monthly Girly Night this past Saturday. It's a low-carb pizza, with the base made of almond flour and grated cheese, and it is abdolutely delicious!

Love//
Carina

"Waiting to develop courage is just another form of procrastination. The most successful people take action while they're afraid!" - Bev James

How true this is! I am an expert procrastinator sometimes, especially when there is something I don't want to do, but also when there is something I am scared of doing for one reason or another.

I might want to do it, but I might be afraid that I won't do it well enough, or that I might fail completely. Or I want to do it but what will happen if I actually managed to do it, will it change my life, or even me? Will people look at me differently if I fail or succeed than they do now? Maybe I have expressed strong opinions about something, but along the way of life I have come to realise that it might be as I thought, and maybe people around me will judge me for changing my opinions? Maybe you are afraid that if you do this thing you keep avoiding to do you will lose yourself and who you are?

The list why we put up doing something can be long, but it almost always comes down to fear of some sort. But here's the thing; If you don't do it, you will never know what could come of it! This thing will be an important step in your life. Everything you chose to do, and everything you chose to not do are important steps in your life. It will change you even when you decide not to do something. It is always a matter of choice, and every choice is life changing. Even choices to not act!

The difference between putting something off and doing something is huge though. When you put something off, or when you chose not to do something because you are afraid of doing it, it will keep hanging over you for a long time, maybe for the rest of your life. But when you something, no matter if you fail or succeed in doing it, you can always feel proud for having tried. And that is success, right there!

In other words, if you try you succeed!

So if you have got something you want to do, or need to do, or should do just do it. Now that if you at least try and do your best, you will never ever go wrong.

And of course, always, always, always keep your main goal in sight. Never lose track of who you are inside even when you do something that you might not want to do. Everything you do will help you forward, will you reach your goals as long as you have your main goal in focus while doing it.

This means that you can NEVER go wrong! EVER!!!

"Waiting to develop courage is just another form of procrastination. The most successful people take action while they're afraid!" - Bev James

The results might not be what you expected, but it will always be good for you in the end if you keep this in mind.

Carina

Diary

I just love my new life!
I love my new job, my new friends, my new wages!
I love the new me!

Because I feel like a brand new person. I have more energy and are able to actually enjoy my free time now, before I was always so tired that I hated even thinking about doing something. Now, I enjoy doing things.

This past weekend I was a busy bee on the Saturday, I did some washing, I cleaned the house, did the shopping, baked a cake and cooked. All before my monthly Girly Night with films, face mask, foot bath, nice food and popcorn with my good friend C. It was an amazing feeling to have that kind of energy. It has been a long time.

And today I got my first wage, "only" for half a month, but still it is more money in one lump than I have had for a year and a half. Nice.

I'm feeling alive again. Not only do I feel like I can enjoy the times I am not working, but I also have the money to actually do something during those times as well.

The only thing I haven't been doing much of lately is writing, but I think I just need to settle in this new life first.Also, I have an "old" laptop, and it gets extremely hot this time of year, and since I have it on my lap I get extremely hot too. Right now I am sweating like a pig. Hahaha, nice ha! It is 30 degrees (Celsius) in here as it is anyway, with this laptop on my lap it gets warmer than that. So, only a short moment at a time. And also, I do sit in front of computer screens all days, so some days I just don't feel like sitting in front of one when I come home.

Anyway, I am sure the inspiration will show up when it gets cooler again.

Tonight will be pizza night, a simple way to celebrate.

Love
Carina

Diary

I just realised that I haven't said anything about my new job yet, and how it is! But first I want to mention the fact that I have posted two music videos in a row, coming from sadness. Just because you have a positive view of life doesn't mean you can't be sad when sad things happen. Of course you can! And you should! All emotions are of importance. Death will remind you of living. Tears will remind you of laughter. And so on! Not at that exact instant, but when it starts to settle.

The important thing to remember is not to get stuck there. It is important to remember to look forward and remember your bliss.

On that note it is time for me to tell you how incredibly happy I am at my new job. I am still in training (for 4 weeks), but the job I will do is fascinating and I know I will enjoy it tremendously. But it is not only that I love (yes I use the strong word love already) what I will be doing, it is everything. When I walk in through the doors I feel at home, I feel embraced by warm welcoming feeling. People are nice, helpful, pleasant and relaxed. Happy. The values and the attitude are completely in line with my own personal beliefs about life in whole. It's the Fish Philosophy; Play (Have fun), Make their day (leave the customers and the co-workers happy every time), Be there (be present where you are NOW), and Choose your attitude (make a deliberate decision). Everybody is equal, it is One for all and All for one.

A couple of months ago I stumbled upon a company called Mindvalley. They have the same kind of attitude and they are one of the best workplaces in the world according to some competion. While reading up on them I said to myself, and my son, that that's the kind of company I want to work for. Well, my new job is not one of the best workplaces in the world (yet), but it is one of the best workplaces in Spain. I am sure they have the possibility (and the ambition) to be on the top list in the world. And I for one is planning to be a part of it.

This just goes to show that you should dream. Not dwell on your dreams, just notice them and let them go again, and soon enough they will come true!

I am so happy!

Love
Carina

Happy Birthday, Dad!

My dad should have turned 65 today, sadly his last birthday was his 60th. We played this song at his funeral for several reasons. He really liked Smokie, and their version of this song is absolutely wonderful, but he was also a sailor in his youth. I am sure he is sailing the energies to be near all the people he loved.




Happy Birthday, my sweet, loving Dad! You are forever in my heart. You are a big part of who I am today, without you I wouldn't be me, in so many ways. I miss you every day, even though I also feel that you are present every day. I love you until Eternity, just as I know you love me until Eternity! Thank you for being my Dad!

Love
Carina